can't

can't go back
to the life I had (without you)
can't go on
'til you're with me (again)
so I sit
pushed
by internal organs playing feelings
of uncertainty and wonder
living and waiting
to live (again)

my drummer keeps a good heartbeat
skipping only momentarily
when the Force is disturbed

stomach man plays on
upsetting
only the lonely intestines
knowing that I can't go back
wanting
to go

on living, not waiting
to live (again)